I need help can someone tell me where to find a proffesional soccer team that i can paly in so i could show th

i dont want 2 join a soccer high school team because even if your good they wont notice you but somethimes i get very nervous and do everyting wrong even somthime i get scared of the ball or almost everytime but deep down in me ims hy and i know im good but its hard to show it only people i trust now how good i am they evn called me messi people say i suck but i know i dont i just need 2 show more character and self determination i need a chance my long childhood dream and wont let it die just like that im working hard on it but only if i had that chance of showing my real soccer player in me i know i can but theres something stopping me please someone understand me adn i hope i succed i wont ever backdown my dream ]=( =)